Compromising Job Decisions

Today I decided to stop complaining about my Job. It's not my favorite place to be and everyday when I get up to go there I'm angry and when I leave I have the same feeling; It's getting really bad. I was talking to a friend/co-worker and told her that if I complain and or vent she's allowed to hit me. I told her it's sad but I'm seriously considering looking into jobs that pay less money just so that I don't have to be so upset anymore. 

I know that there is no guarantee that the next job is going to be any better. It's just that I'm to that point where my present environment is not healthy for me mentally or physically. I know that typically when someone is looking into another job they look for something that pays more not less. However I'm at a point where I don't know what I really want to do, however I know that not being at peace with myself or my current situation is not a good thing.

I wonder if other people consider going to lesser paying jobs just to get away from their current jobs stressful environment?

Ebay

So last month, I attended the Philadelphia Pen show. While there I spent some time at Susan Wirth's table. Ok so I spent pretty much all of Friday sitting there trying out different pens. I purchased two pens; one is Japanese and the other is a Esterbrook with a Osmiroid Sketch nib. I was and still am very happy with my purchases. I came home and hopped right away onto ebay searching for more Osmiroid nibs to put into my Esterbrook. my first purchase. (Not first Ebay purchase ever. Just first Osmiroid purchase.)  Was a left hand set of Osmiroid nibs. I paid for them right away. It's been 2 weeks and I have not heard anything from the seller. It says that they would be delivered anywhere form 2/8-2/22 .  Since then I have won two other sets of Osmiroid nibs off of ebay. Both sets now reside in my house. My question is should I contact the seller before the last date the nibs should arrive or wait until the last day and then make contact. It is bothersome to me because the second seller emailed me to let my know the nibs where in the mail and the third one had the mailed icon show on ebay. I'm just becoming worried about whether or not my nibs are going to come anytime soon or at all.

Procrastination

Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday and avoiding today.” –  Dr. Wayne Dyer

So Procrastination, It's my life and I live it well. It's so not something to be proud of. I'm not proud of it, just telling it like it is. 

 My first excuse for not blogging regularly was because my mother was sick. One week she would be home and the next in the hospital. So I told myself I didn't have time. Now that she has passed away. I no longer have that excuse. 

It's super crazy how in life all the thing we say we are going to do or want to do just never get done. Or Maybe it's just a me thing? I always have and excuse or a reason why I should just put it off. Today I read a blog where there was a list reasons of why people procrastinate. The two that really got my attention were, 

"Fear of success- you might find this strange, but it is true that some of us are afraid of what might happen if we are successful.

 Fear of changes – you do not want to change yourself to adapt to the new state because you are afraid of the impact the changes will bring to you, it is simply that you are already in your comfort zone."   

They really got me thinking am I just avoiding things so that I don't have to worry about what changes will happen tomorrow?  So now I'm kind of tired of the same thing everyday. There is saying I'm not sure if I'm about to say it correctly but here it goes. "If everyday you do the same thing and nothing changes maybe it's time to try something different."  So I'm going to try something different. Not sure yet what, but it's time for change. I can't keep complaining and not doing anything different to change the circumstances.

So It's Official...

I can not spend any money for the next 5 months that is not on preplanned events. Today I realized that I need to have money saved before August to buy plane tickets and pay for a hotel in Amsterdam. So other than the Philadelphia Pen show, a friends birthday next month, and Calligraphy class in April. I can not spend money on unnecessary items. This will be a very big challenge for me. This means no new books, pens, paper, inks or art supplies. I really don't know what I am going to do with myself. Before I realized this I had been planning on saving for a silkscreen kit. Well I guess this means I have to just play with whatever I do have and be happy that I at least have that. I can only take this one day at a time and pray that I don't slip up. I just hope that it is not going to be like the last time I went on a spending freeze, and everything I had ever wanted was now on sale. The worse was when I would go into the book store to pick up books for my mother and a book I had wanted to read was now out. Wow I'm really being a downer before anything has started. Wish Me Luck!