Knife in the Heart

So I have been abstaining from purchases of fountain pens/ pens, ink, paper and books. OMG!!! I am dieing here. All the things I'm interested in have either gone down in price or new things have come out. Pens I want prices either came down or the store now has the pen in stock. Inks I have not had so much of a problem with. Due to the fact that I keep telling my self that, I own all the primary colors so I can always mix my own colors. Paper now who does not like paper. I'm still kicking myself for not going to Kinokuniya in the Palisades Mall and buying the Maruman "sept couleur" notebooks I like, while they where 50% because the store was closing. Now the store is closed. :( Now onto books I live in Barnes and Noble. Every time I go to the mall I have to stop in. Even if I was there the day before and the day before that! I know I have issues but you never see the same things. Take for instance today, I went in and was browsing the Sci-Fi section and saw the second book in a series I started not too long ago. I also saw books to another series that looks interesting and I want to read them. However I must stay on course. So I will search the Library for the books and pray that they have them.